I can so relate to this. There are days when I feel so close to God; so glad to be free from the church that I was in and I know for sure that it was the right thing to do.

There are other days where I miss everything about the church and I worry if I am double minded or decieved.

Mostly I know that leaving was right for me- but I can relate to the rollercoaster ride of emotions and thoughts since I left.

I don’t think that you are failing at getting others to partake in new forms of church.

You can only do what you can do- speak truth to people in love and educate them about what you have come to know. You can control their thoughts or choices- even God gave man free will-

So you are doing exactly what you are supposed to do, in my opinion.

I think what you are up against is a mindset….and a system that is so entrenched in what they are doing- it has its clutches in every area of peoples lives.

We felt we were called to leave our church about 2 years before we actually left it. We ignored the “still small voice of God” to leave, clinging to the familiar, the things that felt good, the friendships and connectedness, the feeling good when doing good ministries and so forth.

God was so loving that he allowed for us to experience some really whacked out things over the next year- emotional abuse, verbal abuse and incredible pain that had nothing to do with His love. I think he removed some sort of covering over us to see what was really going on-

when it became more painful to stay than it would be to leave….

we began the exiting process. It took another year of meeting with leadership for release- and when they couldn’t do it (we were in a hotel california like church; you could sign up but you could never leave)…the abuse became so clear, obvious and horrific that leaving became a necessity for us to the level of needing air to breath.

I guess I am saying all this to say; trust God in the equation of what you are doing. If He is calling people out- He will. I have found that He is faithful even when I have seen those who call themselves by His name to be anything but faithful.

Have an awesome trip in Canada.

Hope your trip to Canada goes well. (If you make it as far south as Oklahoma, let me know. )

Amazing indeed to see it happen. Amzing how it really seems to be about trust and love. Have a great time in Canada.