The Women Who Have Been Known As The Pastors Wife
Dec 14, 2008 – This post has now been republished at my new blog
I was hesitant about writing this post, as I know that a few have followed suit of Bill Kinnon. This post has really been on my mind though. I’m writing it in celebration of a group of posts which have come under The People Formerly Known As … banner. These are thoughts compiled by Bill Kinnon, Grace, Jamie Arpin-Ricci, John Frye, and a few others. I don’t know what anyone will make of this, or indeed if anyone will read it; but these thoughts I share from the heart, from my own experiences as the Pastors Wife, and of pastors wives I know. If anything, this post is for me, so I can get this off my chest. It’s also for those women out there who have been known as the pastors wife.
We are the women who have been known as the pastors wife. There are thousands of us all over the world. This was not a role we sought to have in life, we simply fell in love with a man who was called into ministry. Initially we were excited with our new “role”, and, along with our husband, we could see all of the potential there was in the Kingdom of God. We wanted to serve God well; we wanted to sow into the Kingdom; we wanted to live the adventure; we wanted to make God proud. Faithfully we went where God led us.
Silently, over the years, we were molded into our role through the expectations of the congregation. We were expected to serve willingly throughout the church, and be an added extra for free. What a bargain you got, in no other job can a man take his wife to work for free. We worked tiresomely teaching in sunday school classes, helping out in creche, serving tea and coffee, flower arranging, preparing bible studies, banner making, cake baking and helping out with countless other church programs, never to gain any thanks or recognition.
We were expected to look and act in a certain manner, and always had to put on a smile. None of you were really concerned if we were struggling, had questions about church or life in general. You told us countless times, through your actions and words, that we were not there to receive, but to serve. After all we were seen as a Godly lady, and you expected no less. We felt your rebuke.
We were expected to be a hostess, and have an immaculate home, just in case a parishoner should drop by. You didn’t care how late into the night or on what day of the week you telephoned or called by. It was almost as if we were not allowed to have any private time. We soon learnt, and got caller display, so that you could leave countless messages on the answer machine instead. Aren’t you lucky, that unlike most jobs, the pastor is not paid for unsocial hours.
We were expected to be the perfect mothers and never to raise our voice. We were not perceived to have any parenting struggles, and were expected to mentor parents around us. Really though, we were working it all out alone, and thinking that we were making a mess of it. We hoped the latest christian parenting handbook would give us some advice, which we could then pass on to you. Our children were expected to be seen and not heard, always following the ways of the Lord. When our children fell away, many of you just tut-tutted, and raised your eye brows.
We watched helplessly as our husbands confidence was destroyed, as you tore away at him week after week with your endless complaints about the sermon, the music and the length of the service. We watched you draw him further and further into the ground, until he reached depressive levels. What had started as a joy to be in ministry, was now turning into a misery. The demands on our husbands grew, which caused friction at home, as we wanted to try and have some quality family time together. For years we have supported and encouraged our husbands. We have cried so many tears – more tears than you will ever realize.
For years we’ve struggled on a pastors wage, trying to make ends meet. We watched as you all went on your luxury holidays, whilst you leant us your caravan by the sea for free. We know that your heart was in the right place, but it didn’t mean that we didn’t wish we were at some luxury resort instead.
We are humbled, and very grateful, to know that many of you have prayed for us over the years. Know too, that we have prayed for you. You shared your confidences in us, we were not able to share ours with you, having been burned by people too many times in the past.
Gradually we started to withdraw from church life. We realised that relationship wasn’t what you really wanted. We yearned for close Christian friends to share our hearts and dreams with. We wanted to be known for who we were, not as the pastors wife. We have a unique identity. Our conversations with you were impersonal, quite often just to ask us to give a quick message to our husbands.
Along with our husbands we saw so much potential in the church. Over the years we came to realize that we were being turned into people pleasers, not necessarily God pleasers. Church had become a corporate business, which was gradually becoming corrupted from within. The adventurers in us started to die. We realized over time that the potential in the Kingdom of God is outside of the four walls, in the community. We are still trying to work out exactly how that will look, but we are on a journey again, at the beginning of another adventure with God. Sadly, we have realized, that many of you will not be coming on this journey with us. But we have to shake the dust off our feet.
We are the women who have been known as the pastors wife. We are hurting, and bruised. We desperately need building up again. We don’t really know where we fit into all of this anymore. We really want to serve still, but don’t know what we have left within us. There are many of us around, when you meet one of us, get to know us, show an interest in us, after all, we are people too. We are the women who have been known as the pastors wife.
If you have any thoughts or comments to add feel free to, thanks for reading and sharing my thoughts.
Bill Kinnon, Emerging Grace, jamie arpin ricci, john frye, pastors wife, people formerly known asabout
Posted on April 18, 2007
Posted by lynhallewell
I love you babe. Thanks for hanging in there. Without you I don’t know what I’d be currently known as.
wow. thanks lyn. honest and powerful. needs to be said. needs to be heard!
It’s hard to read, Lyn…because it is well said. I’ve linked to it at my blog.
It IS good to be on this journey with you and your husband. May God bless you and your family with His goodness.
Hoping for better days ahead, for the very idea of “pastor’s wife” to be abolished, and for all women to take their stand in the place that they are, and to unashamedly and unapologetically follow God’s lead and no one elses.
I hope you can find peaceful recovery from the days when people defined you. You’re obviously not going to stand for it any more. Blessing to you Lyn!!!
Babe – thank you, love you too! BTW, you’d still be known as Jonathan Hallewell!
David – thank you. I hope it doesn’t fall on deaf ears though.
Bill – thank you for the blog link, I am truly honored. It is good to be on the journey with you too.
Heidi – We should get the banners ready! I echo your thoughts – thank you.
I am Woman – song by Reddy Helen
I am woman, hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I know too much to go back an’ pretend
’cause I’ve heard it all before
And I’ve been down there on the floor
No one’s ever gonna keep me down again
CHORUS
Oh yes I am wise
But it’s wisdom born of pain
Yes, I’ve paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to, I can do anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman
You can bend but never break me
’cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
’cause you’ve deepened the conviction in my soul…
Lyn,
Thank you for this expressive reflection. I linked it over at JESUS THE RADICAL PASTOR. I appreciate your honesty and gentleness. I hope that many sisters-in-Christ are encouraged by it.
[...] has written a post on being a pastors wife. She has been very open about her own pain, and of others she has networked with through the years. [...]
Heidi, I love the words to that song – very powerful. I’ll have a look to see if it’s on itunes.
John thank you for your kind words and the link. I hope this is an encouragement to others, although I’m aware that some may not take it this way.
Wow! I came over (I think) from nakedpastor’s blog to read your post. The title totally intrigued me because I fell into the catefory of “being known as the pastor’s wife” for many, many years. Thank you for putting it out there and speaking on behalf of many. It was so well written.
I thank God that my husband and I have found new ways to minister and love our community outside of the walls of a church–in a way that is void of titles and the driveness to perform. No more striving to please the unrealistic expectations of a group of people. Phew!
I had a bit of an identity crisis for a season, and after a lengthy sabatical, I began to find a whole new freedom in life. Now I am pleased to live outside of the fishbowl. Hooray hooray!
So, thank you for the words!
Very honest description of being a “pastor’s wife”. You could substitute “CEO’s wife”, “President’s wife”, “Senator’s wife”, “attorney’s wife” or any of the many “leaders” in our society. The main difference is the wage earned by the husband. I don’t know what to think, but it seems to be a comment on the institutional church . . . maybe it is time to take a closer look at the structure and organization of the institutional church Maybe ministry shouldn’t be a career or job but a calling — something each Christian does in response to the gentle nudging of Jesus without the pressure to perform.
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Amazing job, thanks for your willingness to share your experience with all of us! I’ve linked it over on mayberrychurch.com.
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Karen – thank you for your words of encouragement. I wasn’t actually sure how other pastors wives would view this – even though I know so many of them out there bearing the scars.
PW – Thank you, I echo what you have written about calling (and the CEO’s wage would be nice
)
Dennis – thank you for the link to your site, and for your kind words.
Lyn,
I’m convinced this entire The People formerly known as…series is being used to help and free people from guilt, shame, pain and a sense of being alone. I’m shocked at how far and wide the meme has traveled. It will be interesting to see who writes the next part.
This is a powerful piece, thank you for writing it! No institution…be it marriage, motherhood or ministry should ever cast a shadow over a woman to hide her true identity or muffle her voice.
Writing this took courage..but what freedom it brings!
Bill – It is very freeing/healing writing. As I was writing yesterday, it all just kind of splurged out – but I think God helped me with that. It would be good to hear from others, my husband thinks there should be a The People Formerly Known As web site!
Wendy – Thank you – you are so right.
Lyn,
I am glad to see that others are being encouraged by your excellent post. God bless!
I became a pastor’s wife 14 and a half years ago when I said “I do”. The first thing the senior pastor’s wife told me when we got together for lunch was that I shouldn’t feel obligated to do anything I didn’t want to do in the church. This was my husband’s job and I wasn’t the one being hired. I think she was trying to help me but it came across as bitter and selfish.
That was several years and 3 churches ago. We’ve been a part of 2 “mega” churches where there were so many pastors and pastor’s wives that we all just blended into the scenery. I chose to get involved because this was my husband’s job and I was taken “to work” every weekend anyway.
I want to say though, some of the most hurtful and difficult times of my life have been because of christians and the way they’ve treated my husband. I’ve held my tongue and I’ve held back the part of me that hasn’t totally surrendered to Christ so many times – oh yeah – I’m human. I don’t do this because it’s the pastorly wife thing to do, but because my husband reminds me from time to time that fairness and justice aren’t God’s only priority – it’s also the relationships between His children and His children’s relationship with Him.
Although I do feel underappreciated and yes I’ve even threatened our children to behave at church – they are PK’s – I thwart my individuality at times to serve a higher purpose. I don’t always like it and I’m not the submissive, bow in the hair, speed limit driving, always have a bible on hand, bubbly pastor’s wife. But, I do love the Lord and my husband and my church and somewhere in there is a place for Calana – a place to be involved for what God has designed me. (ah yes – I do play piano, requirement #1 for a pastor’s wife).
I love my new church. It’s an emergent church in Wichita, Ks. Very hip and lots of unchurched before people. Guess what, a young lady called to say she felt horribly guilty all day because she had lied to me that morning. She said she had to confess because she realized she had lied to a pastor’s wife. WHAT!! Who cares who I am – she lied! Even in our small, intimate,everyone knows you church,there is a wrong perception about the holiness of a pastor, his wife and the little saints known as their children. Sorry, my sarcasm is showing a bit brightly right now.
I do want to be a good pastor’s wife. I’m also aware that God sees me through my heart not my husband’s job or how well I support him. There’s a balance out there for us. I don’t want to be someone I’m not. I do want to honor God although He confuses me and doesn’t answer my prayers my way all the time. Thanks for letting me vent. I thanked my husband for directing me to your site!! I look forward to more discussion on this.
Thank you for sharing so honestly. Peace be with you as you continue your journey with God.
PG
Calana – It is so difficult seeing how our husbands are treated. It’s hard holding your tongue! Your husband sounds like Jonathan. He will often say to me “just leve it, it’s not Christian, God knows etc.” but that has never helped with calming me down! There is a place for us, but it’s not a place like what pastors wives have had before. We are people, we have our own unique gifts, more importantly we are not a freebie. I have often joked with Jonathan that the church see it as buy onw get one free! I love your sarcasm – we’ll talk more!
Pete – thanks for your kind words.
Lyn, thank you. Your honesty astounds me. I cried when I read this post because I know a pastor’s wife who this could describe to the letter.
I have linked to it in my latest blog entry in the hope that it can spread to more pastors’ wives who need this comfort.
And I sincerely hope you have people around you who can help to counteract the negatives that get thrown your way.
May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you.
May the Lord show you his favor and give you his peace.
I am a pastors daughter. Fully grown and attending a church that is not my parents. I assumed I knew the burdens you talked about in this post, and so I did my best to be a good parishoner.
But it was while reading your post that I was stung with conviction. In trying so hard to not be the burden, I failed in being a friend to them. I’ve already e-mailed my friend Layvon, who just happens to be married to Steve,another friend, who just happens to be pastor, to apologize.
Thank you for your part in Gods effort to make me who He’d have me be, and in drawing me closer to my friend.
Heather – Thank you for the link. If this can help other pastors wives then that will be fantastic. Praying for your friend who is a PW, as she finds her way through all of this.
Flyawaynet – I’m sure your friend understands, in fact I know she will. Thank you for your encouraging words.
So pleased to hear someone speaking honestly and openly about it, it is an issue for so many silent women and men whose husbands and wives work in church ministry. For my own part my husband is a Verger in a cathedral church, my daughter and I are often referred to as Peter’s daughter and Peter’s wife, that is until we do something perceived as wrong then suddenly everyone remembers our name. I worry that this will affect my daughter as she grows up and have considered taking her to a different church and yet feel I should be there supporting my husbands ministry in this place and there is no escape from the expectations anyway living on the job. The issues are so complex, the financial one rings true particularly for us at the moment too so thanks for sharing it is such a relief to know there are people out there sharing the same issues sometimes. May God bless you and your family in your ministry and may you always remember your worth in his eyes.
Kirsty – I hate being referred to as Jonathan’s wife! 5 years after we’d been at our last church I still had people calling me Jonathan’s wife, and then saying “sorry, I’ve forgotten your name again!” My children have always concerned me in regards to ministry. Some ministry kids turn out right, others go right off the rails – I guess in some ways you can say that about any children. Some I know do say how they wish Dad was around more etc. God bless you too, and thank you for your comment.
Heidi
Oh girl, how that song reverberates in my thoughts. I am new to this Pastor’s Wifes role, our first pastorate, but I am 46. There was life before the pastorate and I have recently claimed Helen Reddy’s song to stay strong and not allow those that would choose to change me into who I am not.
God Bless You
Thanks for putting your heart on paper. I have passed it on to our young elders to help them watch over our young pastor’s wife and her husband.
Thanks for writting this! I have been an actual “pastor’s wife” for about 2 years now, however, we were volunteer youth leaders for many years prior to my husband getting the position. I feel for what Lyn said and I understand it completely, even after just 2 years! To make things worse for me, I am also the church secretary.
i’m writing this as a former pw. there was a time when i would probably be right there commiserating with you. my present perspective, however, from having lived on both sides of the clergy – laity divide, is that there is a built in antagonism that exists between pastors and their congregations. what happens with pastors’ spouses (in most cases this will be a wife) is simply a by-product of what is, imo, a very unhealthy, dysfunctional system to begin with.
Love this thread, love your post. Here’s what the whole series has triggered in me – http://lordibelievehelpmyunbelief.blogspot.com/2007/04/tribe-formerly-called-quest.html
PWinMI – Wishing you the best as you and your husband begin ministry together. Don’t let the system change you!
Jon – Thank you. I really hope your elders take a mental note, and watch over your pastor and his wife well. It’ll be good if you could give them a copy of John Frye’s post, on the pastor, as well (if you haven’t done so already). The link to his post is at the beginning of this post.
Former pw – You are indeed correct. It is a very unhealthy, dysfunctional system. This is why a lot of moving out of institutional church now, and creating Christian communities outside.
Jim – I’ll go over and read your post, thanks.
As the best friend of a pastor’s wife…..thank you. I have been her sounding board, for all the stuff you have endured. How often I’ve wanted to go find the poeple who have made my friends lives soooo difficult, and have a short, blunt little conversation. If only it could be done like that……
The expectation thing is why I finally left the four walls of the church. I loved many of the people, but hated all the ‘politics’ that destroyed so many great people. However, I am amazed at how God holds the broken, healing and comforting, and in the end….something beautiful comes out of it. Only God…
Bless you on your journey. You are courageous.
Thank you for your kind words Che. Church – ah – it’s full of politics!!
thanks Lyn, awesome moving honesty! I am sorry for your pain but i hope your words bring liberation, hope and encouragement to everyone who reads them – and a challenge to us all to treat each other as humans not handy ministry accessories!
thanks Paul
The people known as christians……
Bill Kinnon started it with his thought provoking meme ‘the people formerly as the congregation’, Jamie Arpin-Ricci has writen my favourite iteration ‘the people becoming known as missional’ and Lyn has written the most poignant version ‘the woman…
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I’m sorry you’ve been hurt and have had to watch while your husband was hurt. It’s not right and I really don’t believe that this kind of hurt is God’s overarching will. I believe he uses these instances to grow us and waken us, though. I pray that I would remain wakened to the need for change.
Thank you for your kind words Tina. Yep, we’ve definitely grown through all of this!!
I have read your entry and understand it very much, not as a pastors wife but as one who has always been totally involved in the church as my parents were chartered members. I have been along side my mom as she has been along side and done the jobs the pastors wife didn’t, couldn’t or wouldn’t do. Like the pastors kids/family, we were put on pedestals and expected to act, and talk just right. I really appreciated you entry.
Katherine, thank you so much for your comment. Hopefully the system will change.
Lyn,
May I post your blog entry on womenbeyond.com? It is so very important to raise awareness about this…
Amie
Sure Amie, that’s absolutely fine – thanks. Love your site, and looking forward to getting to know you more at Emerging Women
I finally got it posted Lyn. Thank you and I hope that it does your heart justice..
Amie
Wow, that looks great Amie – thanks ((hugs))
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Thanks for your article… I befriended the pastor’s wife and realized she was just a normal “down to earth” Girlfriend, that is in love with Jesus… We really connected… We were both lonely and looking for a special “Girlfriend” to chat with… It was Great while it lasted but now we have to back off so we don’t jeopardize the ministry… How can a pator’s wife have a “girlfriend” without hurting others at church?
Thanks for your comment Dawn – really sad huh? The pastors wife does actually have the right to a “special” friend, hey, look at Jesus, in amongst his disciples he still had “special” friends who he had a deeper relationaship with.
LYNN H.:
Very potent and rings true for most pw’s at one time or another.
For Dawn: My pastor husband and I have come to realize that you can’t really have a close friend within the church you’re at. Friendships with other pastors and their wives, or close friendships with non-members seems to work better in the long run.
Hello everyone,
I thought I was looking for one thing and stumbbled across this web site.
I’m praying that someone out there can answer my concern.
I am a middle aged woman who is engaged to a well known minister.
What does a minister look for in a wife and how can I be sure that I have what it takes to be a ministers wife. Does one’s educational level make a difference or should that be a focus at all? If the educational difference matters than to what degree should it matter?
I have prayed and prayed and have statred down this path but would like feedback.
I understand your concern it wasn’t that long ago that I was in your place. The truth is your husband wants someone that will love and support him no matter where the ministry takes him. Churches and their members come and go but you are what he wants to be sure of someone that will always be there. I know religious programming has made it seem as though the are perfect PWs out there without a certain look, and demeanor but the truth is your job is 1st to please God and be the woman he has called you to be then to please your husband and family being the wife and mother that they need you be. Church people will have their expectations but that’s not the standard that you have to live up to honestly a lot of them are unpleaseable anyway. Life in the spotlight can be unforgiving but it can be done. God equips the called to fulfill his purpose. I am sure you are going to be a great minister’s wife by being a great wife, Be Blessed.
btw….
That song, I am Woman is sung by Helen Reddy. ;o)
T
…. and here are the lyrics again!
I Am Woman
-Artist: Helen Reddy from “Helen Reddy’s Greatest Hits”: EMI ST 11467
-peak Billboard position # 1 for 1 week in 1972
-Words and Music by Helen Reddy and Ray Burton
I am woman, hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I know too much to go back an’ pretend
’cause I’ve heard it all before
And I’ve been down there on the floor
No one’s ever gonna keep me down again
CHORUS
Oh yes I am wise
But it’s wisdom born of pain
Yes, I’ve paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to, I can do anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman
You can bend but never break me
’cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
’cause you’ve deepened the conviction in my soul
CHORUS
I am woman watch me grow
See me standing toe to toe
As I spread my lovin’ arms across the land
But I’m still an embryo
With a long long way to go
Until I make my brother understand
Oh yes I am wise
But it’s wisdom born of pain
Yes, I’ve paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to I can face anything
I am strong (strong)
I am invincible (invincible)
I am woman
Oh, I am woman
I am invincible
I am strong
FADE
I am woman
I am invincible
I am strong
I am woman
Wow! I am a fellow pastors wife. You nailed it. What a great post. It’s good to know there’s other PW’s out there with the same issues.
Thanks Rebecca.
I stumbled across your site and found some of your words to be true, however sad. I used to think in terms of here I am look at me, however after 10 years of pastoring my husband took his bible and led me to Christ….it’s been 16yrs now and I’ve never once regreted the day that we began serving together…I love being a Christian, I love teaching, I love playing the piano, I love singing in the choir, I love going soul winning, I love the bus kids, I love the Lord….I guess you could say “I love it all” and when I criticized or talked about as we all are for our standards….I thank the Lord, for that’s when I know I’m pleasing Him…
Hi Debra,
It was lovely to read about how the Lord is blessing you. Keep focusing on him.
Thank you…you have printed my heart… i have been a pastor’s wife for 27 years and I am feed up with good church people…I am drained and i sometimes question God how much longer and how can i continue to smile….but I too have redirected my ministry toward the community and as far as I am concerned the so called church goers…well they can…they know what they can do!
Thanks for sharing Reba. I too share you burn out at the moment. Bless you with your community work.
Thanks so much for your web site just what I needed today.
I to am a pastors wife our church is small.His family and my family attend and lately there has been no peace in my home.
I have such a time keeping my mouth shut and feel like if the church split it would be my fault anyway.
I truly want peace in my home and Christ to be Glorify in his church it’s not mine away.
Pray for me.
Thanks for your comment Marilyn. Praying for you in your situation.
I find this song very helpful when it all seems too much…
Oh great God
Be small enough
To hear me now
There were times when I was crying
From the dark of Daniel’s den
I had asked you once or twice
If you would part the sea again
Tonight I do not need a
Fiery pillar in the sky
Just want to know you’re gonna
Hold me if I start to cry
Oh great God
Be small enough to hear me now
Oh great God
Be close enough to feel me now
(Oh great god be close to me)
There have been moments when I could not face
Goliath on my own
And how could I forget we marched
Around our share of Jerichos
But I will not be setting out
The fleece for you tonight
Just wanna know if everything will be alright
Oh great god be close enough to feel me now
Oh praise and all the honor be
To the god of ancient mysteries
Whose every sign and wonder
Turn the pages of our history
But tonight my heart is heavy
And I cannot keep from whispering, whispering
Are you there?
And I know you could leave writing
On the wall that’s just for me
Or send wisdom while I’m sleeping
Like in Solomon’s sweet dreams
I don’t need the strength of Sampson
Or a chariot in the end
Just wanna know you still know how many
Hairs are on my head
Oh great God (Are you small enough)
Be small enough to hear
Me now
Thank you, that’s a lovely song, who is it by?
Thank you so much for this – I am engaged to a youth pastor at 20 years old – a baby, I know
- and feel pretty overwhelmed with it all. I thought it was a simple deal of love, but so much more comes with being with him! The spotlight, expectations and the inability to “fit in” with peers at church. I’m scared looking ahead, because it seems like our life together will be complicated and difficult. Honestly, I hate the fact that eyes are already on us. I would love prayer for clarity, assurance and for strength from God, and if possible Lyn, some words from you too – I think you have my email.
Hi Rainy, I’ve emailed you.
I sent this post(The Women Who Have Been Known As The Pastors Wife) to some of the church members and it was funny, the feedback from the people was compassionate, yet the pastor was upset because he said it created a “stir” in the ministry and made him look bad.
Lyn;
I repreinted your blog and got some feedback.. some good some not so good. I wonder if people just don’t want to see or hear what is really happening in ministry families. Like they want to stay in a fog of hope and belief that every thing really is all rosey? Anyway, thank you for your courage and I count myself proud to stand by and with you.
Godsseed and Graceful,
Thanks so much for sharing. There will always be both positive and negative feedback, after all it is a touchy subject! Thank you for your encouragement.
I am so glad I stumbled on this article! Sometimes as a pastor’s wife, I feel isolated and overwhelmed at times. It is wonderful to know that other women of God have experienced similar feelings and it’s good to be a support to each other. (The Women Who Have Been Known As The Pastor’s Wife) is well written and it speaks to the challenges and experiences of so many of us. Thank you and God bless!!
Thank you so much Dollnita. God bless you too.
As a young unexperienced pastor’s wife, I feel somewhat heartened that others have voiced what they’re going through, and somewhat discouraged that it doesn’t seem to get much better than this. I’ve moved to a new country with my husband to minister, so I’m far from my support system. I’m a seminary grad, so I suppose that helps me know a bit more of what to expect.
But, I don’t want to be a “pastor’s wife!” I want to be me! I like to play drums, not piano! Choir music bores me. Children’s ministry scares me; I’d rather be on the streets with the homeless!
Any tips from other pw’s who have learned how to be themselves and resist the pressure to conform, without becoming bitter against the church and her husband?
My only tip after all these years is to simply say be yourself. If you don’t then, likewise, you will end of feeling bitter. We are all beautiful individuals designed by God, not robots who all act, dress and do the same. Gradually churches perceptions are changing. You have to be straight from day one, and don’t feel forced or pressured into joining a particular group or doing something which is far from the heart and call of what God has put within you.
Bless you on your journey.
Lyn,
I posted this on womenbeyond.com a while ago – as you know. Recently, I received an email from a woman who felt that she was alone and felt inspired to keep holding on because of what you wrote.
She is not the only positive feedback that I’ve gotten, you’ve had quite a bit of good responses. She does strike me as someone who would benefit from the support that only women in her circumstance (as Pastor’s wives) could offer her.
When I respond to her, may I offer her your email address and if so, what is your email address (lol!). If you are open to her contacting you and want to keep your email address private, please send your info to my email: womenbeyondadmn@aol.com
Your sharing your heart has been a blessing for many.
Amie
Thank you so much.
[...] The Pastors Wife Syndrome October 29, 2008 Posted by Gordon in Pastor’s Stuff. Tags: Australian Baptist, Baptist blog, Baptist blogger, Baptist Union, Christian blog, church, clergy wives, pastors spouse, Pastors wife, pastors wives trackback I read this gut wrenching account of what it is like to be a pastors wife from a great blog called Beyond The Four Walls. The comment comes from a post entitled: The Women Who Have Been Known As The Pastors Wife. [...]
Found your blog through another blog. I, too am a pastor’s wife and also a licensed minister. I just couldn’t conform to the image some people have, many of the things you wrote about. People pleasing is a never ending job and you can never perfect it. I encourage all pastor’s wives I come in contact with to be themselves. Seek to please God, learn to graciously say no, and remember you are first a wife and mother than a pastor’s wife.
Hi Gloria, thanks for stopping by. I really agree with what you wrote. Bless you.
Hey lyn and all the other pasters wives out there.
I have been a ministry wife for 22 yrs. I so get your pain,hurt,and confusion. It is a hard road.A lonely road.
What we have to remember is it is not the critics or the parishoners or the really annoying people that we have to be nice to that is our opposition, it is satin and his workers. He only wants our demise.
So keep praying that our lord jesus will be our constant friend through every hard,bitter,angry,blessed moment.Ask Jesus ,the conquerer ,to keep upholding us to the end and give us the strength,courage and love to face the foe for his sake, that many more will come into a relationship with jesus and be saved. bless you all, and thank you lyn, it means alot to know I am not the only one with hidden tears and scars on this lonely road!!
Hi Traceelee,
I did reply to your comment but it seems to have got deleted – not sure why. Here goes again! I just wanted to thank you for your encouraging words, and you are right that we should stay focused on Jesus.
Bless you on your journey
Thanks for your message. I was just unable to sleep, thinking about how I almost hate going to church anymore. You really hit the nail on the head with this piece. I wish every member of the the congregation could read this posting. You see, what the congregation fails to realize is that the best way to keep the Pastor is to keep the Pastor’s wife happy. I feel that while people smile and greet me, they mainly never take the time to get to know me personally, or care about our family. Yes, we have made an effort to get to know people, but they mainly care only about the Pastor and what I am doing to serve. The expectations are not the same in any other profession. You can’t really vent to anyone, and have to live on a meager salary We are underappreciated!
Hi Patty,
Thanks for your comment. I am still amazed by how many people out there still comment on this post some 18 months on. It certainly can be a lonely journey – the venting thing is the biggy – where do you turn?. I pray that things get easier for you.
WOW! I’M CRYING. That article SO TRUE. I find being a pw so bitter sweet, such a mixed blessing. I’ve been a pw over 17 years. I keep my faith, my hope in Him alone. Sisters we lose so my battles we must not lose the war. Keep our eyes on the prize.(phil 3:14)
Thank you Diane, and for your encouragement. We must certainly keep our eyes fixed on Him. Bless you on your journey.
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I have been a pastor’s wife for 27 years and I totally understand you Lynn. It is a very unique life and it is NOT easy. Thank you for your honesty and openess…it’s nice to know there are people who understand.
Thank you Carrie. God bless you.